Random Ramblings

I’m in the midst of doing some house keeping… of my computer to start with. With time, one tends to accumulate a lot of things that one doesn’t remember why it was kept in the first place. With the advent of computers – we have an extra space for clutter. De-cluttering is not as easy as one would hope. From finding mementos from a happy event or just things you would keep for remembrance, its hard to just throw everything out.

My room looks more like a junk yard than anything else. Boxes of things from my previous move still exist. In some way, I obviously don’t need them anymore, since I have not had the use for it in such a long period of time. But lack of space and planning – keeps the things in the boxes until I can find out a way to organise my life (which is in dire need of some semblance of order).

I’m growing older with every passing day but yet my demeanour says otherwise. In some ways I feel I’m wasting my life away and with the advent of some changes in my work life, the pressure to do something has increased at least ten-fold.

As I was trying to clear my Outlook (which has a lot of mail, you will be surprised if I told you), I came across this. I’m assuming a friend sent it to me, which I just put aside… now is as a good a time as any to make use of it.

1. Throw out nonessential numbers. This includes age, weight and height. Let the doctors worry about them. That is why you pay "them".

2. Keep only cheerful friends. The grouches pull you down.

3. Keep learning. Learn more about the computer, crafts, gardening, whatever. Never let the brain idle. "An idle mind is the devil's workshop." And the devil's name is Alzheimer's.

4. Enjoy the simple things.

5. Laugh often, long and loud. Laugh until you gasp for breath.

6. The tears happen. Endure, grieve, and move on. The only person, who is with us our entire life, is ourselves. Be ALIVE while you are alive.

7. Surround yourself with what you love, whether it's family, pets, keepsakes, music, plants, hobbies, etc. Your home is your refuge.

8. Cherish your health: If it is good, preserve it. If it is unstable, improve it. If it is beyond what you can improve, get help.

9. Don't take guilt trips. Take a trip to the mall, even to the next county; to a foreign country but NOT to where the guilt is.

10. Tell the people you love that you love them, at every opportunity.

AND ALWAYS REMEMBER:
Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.

And if you don't send this to at least X number of people - who cares? But do share this with someone. We all need to live life to its fullest each day.

You've been through some tough times in the past, and you deal with that by hiding your feelings behind a mask. It's probably not a Vader-style helmet, but even a metaphorical mask makes it hard for people to get to know you. Once, you were innocent and romantic, but now you're bitter and you wear lots of black. Like Anakin, you're good with technology, and you're an excellent driver.

10% of the people who tooks this quiz got the same evaluation.

Hmm... I'm not so sure about this one

Recently, I was on a weekend trip with some of my friends. It was fairly difficult time for me. I tend to associate things to points or happenings in my life. So I’m easily put in a morose mood, since there are a lot of triggers to my numerous memories.

Throughout the whole weekend, I tried my utmost best to stay cheery. I guess I overreacted in a situation - I was already reaching a fairly low point; and with some people demanding that I should listen to them pushed me over the edge. I know I put some of them in an awkward situation - but then again I was never one to let other people make decisions for me, especially since I've stated my preference quite clearly.

Coz I forgot to call and wish my sister on her birthday - I managed to find some time after the big dinner to call her. As I speak to her, I realise to my chagrin - the little devil is of age. Hit with that realisation and that I'm so removed from my family, it only spirals me further into my own shell. My sis happened to be with her godma (my god-sis) at that point of time, and told me to go and visit my godma. At which I reach my breaking point. I've yet to come to terms with the passing of my godpa - so I wasn't able to deal with the reminder of that period.

When one of my friends comes to get me for the mini party going on; after I had hung up the phone, I was not in the party or talking mood so I just lied on the bed and let my mind wander… it really wasn’t the best of things and I was just headed straight into a depressive state. So I picked myself up, put on a happy face and joined the party. Probably wasn’t my best performance, but hell, at least I tried right?

To the people who put up with my morose mood… thank you